After a terrible headache last evening, i gave in and took a panadol. Oh man, i think the pils are not going to work on me soon, cos i've been taking it so often. :( I really hate headaches omg.
After the awesome headache, i spent one whole sleepless night,
trying to plan out the outlay for my room, when my new furniture moves in.
Keep shifting the things ard, in my head. After few hours, i still couldn't quite decide how to place everything.
I'd like to live in the countryside, maybe in a cottage? Ard the hills and greens. With the sheeps and cows and lamb. And the blue blue sky. But i don't mind near the sea too. Oh yes, i'll not mind a castle too HAHA. dream on.
If i can't go and live with the nature, maybe a modern flat, with antique, woody furniture, and a countryside style is good too.
Now, whenever i look out of my window, all i see is flats. And once the view of the sea ard sentosa is now blocked. I'm so tired of being surrounded by flats!
Meeting Audrey in a while. Study, SHOP. :)
I think i've been spending too much, shall try to hold back now.
I think i should go catch some sleep now.
Monday, August 31, 2009
Saturday, August 29, 2009
Piecing it all tgt
You know, sometimes it's really funny.
You listen to a song, and take it to be just another song.
But suddenly, maybe in the slient night,
you listen to it again, and.
Suddenly,
you get the song,
Like, yeah, the lyrics do make a story.
Getting into the beat, the music.
How do you know, he, she, the right one?
You'll have only one, of the one.
Then, what if you pass him/her by, let him/ her go pass.
it'll be all gone?
It's near the end, near graduation day.
Like in sec sch, then now too.
You'll get some unexpected surprises,
people whom once seems so stranger.
unity of the classes.
Treasure only after it's lost,
yeah, somewhere along there.
You know you shouldn't take that attitude,
esp with your parents.
But, you just had to, somehow.
Bad day, bad mood,
Always finding cover-ups.
But, deep down you know it's wrong,
regetting.
People who you hang out, almost everyday.
You thought, they're prehaps the closest i can ever find.
But, as it goes,
All's different, you just don't know why.
I could never picture myself,
saying, hey, i could die for this friend of mine.
Maybe, 18 years of age isn't quite enough still.
FRI. Out with ICONS. Planned for the upcominn 10 weeks. Chatted. Healthy lunch. Dessert! pictues of cos. Fruitfly research at the lib. These lovely girls!
Shopped with Hooikim. Not a wastedful trip at all. Caught up with each other. Brought some much needed essentials. :)
My life, suddenly, ain't that bad afterall :)
You listen to a song, and take it to be just another song.
But suddenly, maybe in the slient night,
you listen to it again, and.
Suddenly,
you get the song,
Like, yeah, the lyrics do make a story.
Getting into the beat, the music.
How do you know, he, she, the right one?
You'll have only one, of the one.
Then, what if you pass him/her by, let him/ her go pass.
it'll be all gone?
It's near the end, near graduation day.
Like in sec sch, then now too.
You'll get some unexpected surprises,
people whom once seems so stranger.
unity of the classes.
Treasure only after it's lost,
yeah, somewhere along there.
You know you shouldn't take that attitude,
esp with your parents.
But, you just had to, somehow.
Bad day, bad mood,
Always finding cover-ups.
But, deep down you know it's wrong,
regetting.
People who you hang out, almost everyday.
You thought, they're prehaps the closest i can ever find.
But, as it goes,
All's different, you just don't know why.
I could never picture myself,
saying, hey, i could die for this friend of mine.
Maybe, 18 years of age isn't quite enough still.
FRI. Out with ICONS. Planned for the upcominn 10 weeks. Chatted. Healthy lunch. Dessert! pictues of cos. Fruitfly research at the lib. These lovely girls!
Shopped with Hooikim. Not a wastedful trip at all. Caught up with each other. Brought some much needed essentials. :)
My life, suddenly, ain't that bad afterall :)
Thursday, August 27, 2009
Crying out for goodness sake.
12 hours later: my last paper, end of prelims.
It’s pretty fortunate that arts are ending much earlier. All of science counterparts are shouting out in sorrow, everytime I brought this matter up. :) Just too bad!
After crashing onto my bed for few hours in the afternoon, I’m feeling recharged up till now. Yet concentration level is pretty low. Quite in the post-prelims mood already.
Lets see. For prelims, I actually feel much more prepared, than the CTs, perhaps having read through much of the notes so many times before already. Yet, I’m not having much faith in the results.
Geog was pretty much screwed up. Human paper today’s actually okay, due the whole atmosphere was weird, and I was feeling drowsy. Physical paper, questions were indirect to me.
Econs, I’ve got a pretty good feeling about essays actually. Managed to finish all six parts. But, whether it’s crap or not, I don’t know. Pls, let me pass this time, plsss.
Lit was just usual. Nothing much to comment about this unpredictable subject ever, maybe only, I do find the poems and prose quite interesting.
Gp, my most feared subject. Don’t think I could handle another consultation with a fail. Try to apply whatever knowledge I could squeeze out then. Just hope that it’ll pay off.
Maths, the failure of my life. Curse of my life, ever since sec sch time. I think I did okay for statistics, but the pure maths part was total crap.
With this review of the prelims and having sit through the full papers, I’ve gotten a real touch with the real exams. It’s gotta be real tough man. Arts is indeed about stamina to be able to pull through those essays. About, more than 15 essays? Halfway through lit and geog the last two days, my fingers almost got detached and my arms were feeling floppy by the end of it. Totally draining physically. And I haven’t got to the amount of things we need to memorise.
But I’m glad that I was not in the science stream. Interest is totally not there.
Okay, the academic dull part is over.
I’m looking forward towards the post-prelims celebrations, which will most probably take part next week. :)
Some retail therapy is most needed.
I was reading through some geog notes the other day, and came across this term : Gender Inequality. Absolutely disgusted with the content. Bride Burns. Female Infantcide. Totally unjust, in every sense. What’s worse, mothers could actually bear to murder their own daughters, just for the sake of trying for another son. They can see their daughters be burn to death, just because of the death of their freaking old husbands. Where’s the great mother love here?
What’s with this gender inequality, seriously. If females were that insignificant, that indispensable, then these senseless egoistic males should perhaps think, where did they even start out from.
Enough ranting, I’m just glad that here, at least girls are respected.
Anw, HAPPY BIRTHDAY JUANG! (sorry, belated one!)
You were right, that only when it's coming close to the ending then only people starts to get closer. :) But, there's so much more time after this year! And yeah, thanks for the laughter yo! You're prehaps one of the most "high" people i know, my ogl! The wild yet elegant girl, sharing much common interest! :)
happpy birthday dear!
Btw, i'm really stuck onto the piano piece- lovestory meets vivalavida. Beautiful piece of music.
Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
It’s pretty fortunate that arts are ending much earlier. All of science counterparts are shouting out in sorrow, everytime I brought this matter up. :) Just too bad!
After crashing onto my bed for few hours in the afternoon, I’m feeling recharged up till now. Yet concentration level is pretty low. Quite in the post-prelims mood already.
Lets see. For prelims, I actually feel much more prepared, than the CTs, perhaps having read through much of the notes so many times before already. Yet, I’m not having much faith in the results.
Geog was pretty much screwed up. Human paper today’s actually okay, due the whole atmosphere was weird, and I was feeling drowsy. Physical paper, questions were indirect to me.
Econs, I’ve got a pretty good feeling about essays actually. Managed to finish all six parts. But, whether it’s crap or not, I don’t know. Pls, let me pass this time, plsss.
Lit was just usual. Nothing much to comment about this unpredictable subject ever, maybe only, I do find the poems and prose quite interesting.
Gp, my most feared subject. Don’t think I could handle another consultation with a fail. Try to apply whatever knowledge I could squeeze out then. Just hope that it’ll pay off.
Maths, the failure of my life. Curse of my life, ever since sec sch time. I think I did okay for statistics, but the pure maths part was total crap.
With this review of the prelims and having sit through the full papers, I’ve gotten a real touch with the real exams. It’s gotta be real tough man. Arts is indeed about stamina to be able to pull through those essays. About, more than 15 essays? Halfway through lit and geog the last two days, my fingers almost got detached and my arms were feeling floppy by the end of it. Totally draining physically. And I haven’t got to the amount of things we need to memorise.
But I’m glad that I was not in the science stream. Interest is totally not there.
Okay, the academic dull part is over.
I’m looking forward towards the post-prelims celebrations, which will most probably take part next week. :)
Some retail therapy is most needed.
I was reading through some geog notes the other day, and came across this term : Gender Inequality. Absolutely disgusted with the content. Bride Burns. Female Infantcide. Totally unjust, in every sense. What’s worse, mothers could actually bear to murder their own daughters, just for the sake of trying for another son. They can see their daughters be burn to death, just because of the death of their freaking old husbands. Where’s the great mother love here?
What’s with this gender inequality, seriously. If females were that insignificant, that indispensable, then these senseless egoistic males should perhaps think, where did they even start out from.
Enough ranting, I’m just glad that here, at least girls are respected.
Anw, HAPPY BIRTHDAY JUANG! (sorry, belated one!)
You were right, that only when it's coming close to the ending then only people starts to get closer. :) But, there's so much more time after this year! And yeah, thanks for the laughter yo! You're prehaps one of the most "high" people i know, my ogl! The wild yet elegant girl, sharing much common interest! :)
happpy birthday dear!
Btw, i'm really stuck onto the piano piece- lovestory meets vivalavida. Beautiful piece of music.
Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
Friday, August 21, 2009
Life's getting too good here.
I was watching a show on tv, showing how singaporean actors goes on trip, helping the people in the poorer countries.
Sure it was meaningful.
And yes, envy shot in almost immediately.
I do want to get over this tough period soon,
gain some independence,
and go out there.
Live my dream.
Go to the places forgetten by the others, neglect in the midst of all the progress.
Go to help the people there. At the very least, give them some smiles.
I could do with some hardship, yes i can.
A little cutdown in food, no comfy bed for a little while won't hurt.
I'm pretty serious about this whole thing, i can say.
Right now, here, writing in here, in front of the computer,
lights on, music plugged in,
thinking of tml's meal alr, sick of those books there ..
But, there, right on the other side,
they've got only candles, or none at all, counting on the moonlight,
listening to the raindrops, the wind,
dying of hunger, fighting for bits of leftover on the ground, putting into their mouths whatever they can dig out,
so isolated, they don't know the outside world, definetely not their abc.
Just look.
That's why they say, Life's unfair.
Sure it is.
Anw, on a happier note,
today's studying at Icon, though rather slow, but it was pretty much fun. :)
A productive day for pictues, it's been a long time, and a long time.:)
Those two girls, swimming and doing all sorts of funny things in the water!
And, at times like this, you'll wish you're not a girl. yuccks.
AHH, i want to end this all, and go out of this place for a little while!
Sure it was meaningful.
And yes, envy shot in almost immediately.
I do want to get over this tough period soon,
gain some independence,
and go out there.
Live my dream.
Go to the places forgetten by the others, neglect in the midst of all the progress.
Go to help the people there. At the very least, give them some smiles.
I could do with some hardship, yes i can.
A little cutdown in food, no comfy bed for a little while won't hurt.
I'm pretty serious about this whole thing, i can say.
Right now, here, writing in here, in front of the computer,
lights on, music plugged in,
thinking of tml's meal alr, sick of those books there ..
But, there, right on the other side,
they've got only candles, or none at all, counting on the moonlight,
listening to the raindrops, the wind,
dying of hunger, fighting for bits of leftover on the ground, putting into their mouths whatever they can dig out,
so isolated, they don't know the outside world, definetely not their abc.
Just look.
That's why they say, Life's unfair.
Sure it is.
Anw, on a happier note,
today's studying at Icon, though rather slow, but it was pretty much fun. :)
A productive day for pictues, it's been a long time, and a long time.:)
Those two girls, swimming and doing all sorts of funny things in the water!
And, at times like this, you'll wish you're not a girl. yuccks.
AHH, i want to end this all, and go out of this place for a little while!
Thursday, August 20, 2009
Midway down
/edit.
SHAWN is an irritating boy, always doing some stupid things, making stupid requests, stupid actions ..
Even my posts, he has to comment, right?
Always calling just to ask one simple thing, to disturb, to disrupt, to interrupt, to joke.
ohwell, i just have to accept this friend yeah? HAHAH.
He's probably one of the few, who don't judge others by appearances, by some stupid rumours, popularity.
Simple friendship, yet so true and strong.
Without this shortyboy, there'll be prehaps no one to do those silly stuff, even with the embarrasement that comes with it,
my mugging-for-exams nights would be pretty one straight boring dull line.
Sometimes, all it takes is a simple goodluck, a short call, to remind each other that friends do still exist, close and true ones.
Yeah, so here's a thankyou, shortylamunderwearshawnawkwar! :)
halfway thg, it's pretty much draining.
SHAWN is an irritating boy, always doing some stupid things, making stupid requests, stupid actions ..
Even my posts, he has to comment, right?
Always calling just to ask one simple thing, to disturb, to disrupt, to interrupt, to joke.
ohwell, i just have to accept this friend yeah? HAHAH.
He's probably one of the few, who don't judge others by appearances, by some stupid rumours, popularity.
Simple friendship, yet so true and strong.
Without this shortyboy, there'll be prehaps no one to do those silly stuff, even with the embarrasement that comes with it,
my mugging-for-exams nights would be pretty one straight boring dull line.
Sometimes, all it takes is a simple goodluck, a short call, to remind each other that friends do still exist, close and true ones.
Yeah, so here's a thankyou, shortylamunderwearshawnawkwar! :)
halfway thg, it's pretty much draining.
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
Grey clouds are heavy.
Geog, maths, Gp down. Geog was most probably crap, shit. All thanks to the irritating constant headache. Maths was okay for the second part, but the pure maths one was screwed totally. Gp, ahhh. I'm hoping just for a pass. Please.
Just 3 papers down, yet i'm feeling drained already. Stamina isn't here.
I'm still wondering, wth did i chose this jc path, and what's more, as an arts. Heavy writing, heavy memorising. Except for maths, i'll have probably written more than 2000 words by the end.
I'm missing the camps days yet again. And yeah, f3. All of us seemed to be so engrossed in our own world, busy with prelims and all. Just few months ago, outings were considered regular, picnics and all. Even studying out. ohwell, with 83 more days to go, it'll get wrose i guess.
And yes, the countdown board stationed right at the school's gate is terrific. Just to add more stress to the high level i'm already it. It's so black and white, and the impact isn't really that positive. Too much stress just breaks you, you know that.
Two years back, i was all prepared for my O's already. At least for my geography, and most subjects. Just look at me now, i can't see myself looking the results slip next week and smile. I don't want to cry seriously. Freak, thinking of that day next week, i'll bang myself against anything and die. Ahh.
One last thing, i think i look pretty weird with my new stupid specs. Makes me look old (not even older), super studious. I feel like so old lady carrying books la omg. And everyone commented that i'll look like some freak, if with contacts. Ew, something wrong with my face!
Just 3 papers down, yet i'm feeling drained already. Stamina isn't here.
I'm still wondering, wth did i chose this jc path, and what's more, as an arts. Heavy writing, heavy memorising. Except for maths, i'll have probably written more than 2000 words by the end.
I'm missing the camps days yet again. And yeah, f3. All of us seemed to be so engrossed in our own world, busy with prelims and all. Just few months ago, outings were considered regular, picnics and all. Even studying out. ohwell, with 83 more days to go, it'll get wrose i guess.
And yes, the countdown board stationed right at the school's gate is terrific. Just to add more stress to the high level i'm already it. It's so black and white, and the impact isn't really that positive. Too much stress just breaks you, you know that.
Two years back, i was all prepared for my O's already. At least for my geography, and most subjects. Just look at me now, i can't see myself looking the results slip next week and smile. I don't want to cry seriously. Freak, thinking of that day next week, i'll bang myself against anything and die. Ahh.
One last thing, i think i look pretty weird with my new stupid specs. Makes me look old (not even older), super studious. I feel like so old lady carrying books la omg. And everyone commented that i'll look like some freak, if with contacts. Ew, something wrong with my face!
Thursday, August 13, 2009
Panic attack in the dark waters
Had a panic attack, as shawn termed it.
ohyes, panic panic panic.
Esp GP consultation. It was embarrasing.
Isn't it always like that?
You lost the life-buoy,
starts to panic and kick ard.
Then you go under.
Can't touch the ground, can't see the top.
Stuck.
You pray hard, for something to come back.
And scoop you up, out of that.
And when it does, you feel anew.
Ready to charge on.
ohyes, panic panic panic.
Esp GP consultation. It was embarrasing.
Isn't it always like that?
You lost the life-buoy,
starts to panic and kick ard.
Then you go under.
Can't touch the ground, can't see the top.
Stuck.
You pray hard, for something to come back.
And scoop you up, out of that.
And when it does, you feel anew.
Ready to charge on.
Saturday, August 8, 2009
Watched "UP" with F3 yesterday. What an experience, just to get the few tickets. Vivo's queue was omg. Like the world was there. So in the end, with persistance we went to the isolated Tiong Bahru to catch the movie.
But it was all worth it! The show was great, but sadly unrealistic. How nice would it be, if there's someone who would love you so deeply, who would continue you dreams after your death. To grow old with such great love for each other is such a bliss. And so impossible.
Watched Harry Potter few weeks back. Despite the criticism going around, i still find the movie pretty good. Yes, the book has much more details and actions. But i guess, if the movie were to be exact, it'll probably cos more than a bomb, and last more than a day.
I wish someday, i would find some door, open it and go into the magical world. Then i'll meet harry potter and go on with him on your adventures. How great huh. There's be no more confined, dull studying. But i'll be playing with wands, spells, magical creatures and plants, and explore the castle! Yay :)
Maybe if i get good results for A's, Hogwarts will take me in! :)
But it was all worth it! The show was great, but sadly unrealistic. How nice would it be, if there's someone who would love you so deeply, who would continue you dreams after your death. To grow old with such great love for each other is such a bliss. And so impossible.
Watched Harry Potter few weeks back. Despite the criticism going around, i still find the movie pretty good. Yes, the book has much more details and actions. But i guess, if the movie were to be exact, it'll probably cos more than a bomb, and last more than a day.
I wish someday, i would find some door, open it and go into the magical world. Then i'll meet harry potter and go on with him on your adventures. How great huh. There's be no more confined, dull studying. But i'll be playing with wands, spells, magical creatures and plants, and explore the castle! Yay :)
Maybe if i get good results for A's, Hogwarts will take me in! :)
Wednesday, August 5, 2009
Down, Down, Down
I've got no time, not really with much strategies, definetely much less knowledge.
HOW?
Closing to 90 days.
And here i am, still trying deperately trying to pass, which probably wouldn't get me anywhere.
AH, freak.
Come on, send me some good ways.
Oh yes, the light is most probably going out soon.
:(
HOW?
Closing to 90 days.
And here i am, still trying deperately trying to pass, which probably wouldn't get me anywhere.
AH, freak.
Come on, send me some good ways.
Oh yes, the light is most probably going out soon.
:(
Sunday, August 2, 2009
Yesterday was crap.
Did analysis for 15 poems straight. 6 hours.
I thought i'm losing my mind. Seriously.
And in the early morning, i drank some tea, packet tea.
Then for the whole day, my stomach seem to be having some roller-coaster ride.
After i got home, i was going to crash, then i had to redo the Cip thingy.
Man, it was a really bad day.
Before today ends, i'm already hoping for the next weekend to be here.
See, school's really helpful.
Did analysis for 15 poems straight. 6 hours.
I thought i'm losing my mind. Seriously.
And in the early morning, i drank some tea, packet tea.
Then for the whole day, my stomach seem to be having some roller-coaster ride.
After i got home, i was going to crash, then i had to redo the Cip thingy.
Man, it was a really bad day.
Before today ends, i'm already hoping for the next weekend to be here.
See, school's really helpful.
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