I shouldn't be here, at all.

This time last year, some of us busy preparing, in light of the NEW ZEALAND trip.
Freak.
Yes, i'm in the wrong place.

Life reflects it.
Making the wrong choices, walking the wrong routes.
Talking to the wrong people. Writing the wrong things.
With wrong, comes right.
One day, we'll all fly wearing the correct pair of wings.

:)

Whacked up.

Freak, can't believe i failed geog. 4 more marks, AH!!

I think my body is screwed up.
I can survive a day with just one biscuit/bread.
I can sleep forever and still want to sleep.
And having headaches every now and then.
What the shit right.

I think i forgot to mention the lovely friday spent with teapot.
Has mango pudding in a ICE BOWL (i'm serious, cool right?)
Saw many gowns, esp a particulary short gown.
Went to her hot pink room and tried to hid from her. But, failed.
She forced me to stare and the star-less sky and say, yes, i see stars!
And plently of her unglam pictures.
Not forgottening naming her animals, and name the devil aft me (HAHAHA)
Hooray, we should do that more often.


Some times you realise how easily things can go.
But most of the time, it's all just in your mind.
You're so into it, still.

Up and down the hill.

Progress been fluctuating.

Just this weekend, food and clothes had been coming in, instead of words.
Bad. :(
Flea market was good with eve though, and buffet tastes great with family. :)


It's pretty amazing, the works of fate. Besides bringing people together, sometimes, it would bring the right people together.
And the right people, come together, and create stories of their own. Friendship writes stories.
When you look back at history, you'll realize the number of people you've written stories with.
For some, The book is yet to be completed and it prehaps would never reach the end. For some, there're occasional entries only, yet bearing great emotions in them. And for some, words turned to dust, faded words bringing along faint memories.

Some people, on the first meeting, you thought no, how can we ever be friends?
Yet, it turn out other wise. Opposites attacts i guess.
Close friends, would read each other minds. Popping out the question the other party have in mind, completing their statements when they couldn't go on. Awkward situations in an amusing way. Comfortable silence. Embracing the flaws.

BLUEBERRY SHORTCAKE, STRAWBERRY PIE.
I have to say this again. omg, i can't imagine how everything would turn out, if you didn't sit beside me last year, on the every first day.
I would have no teapot to go home with, to laugh at me, to save me from embarrasement and pulling me into her awkward situation. No shortcake to complete this two gruesome years with, to compromise my flaws and filling up my moments of depressions with her singing voice. Less than two years, yet it feels more than a million already. :) Pufferfish do love goldfish.
YAY.


When clouds get too heavy, they let down all the water they're holding.
Suddenly, nothing seems too grey. No more dark, heavy, stormly clouds.

If life is always right, then that wouldn't life?
Only comfort i can find it now.

Reality check.
For geog, i'm smoking thg with my secondary knowledge and my complacently. Too bad, i've been stripped off the A grade band. From my A1 in O's, to what grade in A's? I've decided to put in more than i can for it. Not going to settle with just a mere pass, or a grade C.
For the rest, i'll rather not talk about it.

I see that the stress is getting into most of my counterparts. All fervently cramming words, holding up pens scribbling. Revision plans all set. Yes, the race has started, but how long can it last?

Sometimes i'll get a glimspe of the faint light floating there, right there. It's within reach, but much have to be done, to get my hands on that. At desperate times, i'll run, heavily, struggle with every passing step. Just to reach the end. Then sometimes it'll be breakdowns. No light, it just goes out and i'll lay myself on the shapeless nowhere.

i just hope the light never dies.

So, things are cleared. But, my feelings, i can't vouch for that.

Somehow, it's the gulit that lingers around here. Is it just gulit, or more than that?
I still think that there're much better flowers out there, really.

Life's such a bitch, seriously.

All screwed up. In all possible ways.


AHHHHH.

Yeah, so things are back to square one.
There's a theory (according to vicky),
things will just go wrong if they're meant to go wrong, something like that.
I find it true.

Good or bad, i don't know.
My feelings currently are all screwed up.
And the workload is really piling up.
I've got my revision schedule all planned out,
hopefully i'll abide by it.
And pls pls. 70 points at least for prelims.
Freak, in 5 weeks time.
Mid years are over,
i knew i can't count on that.

So here's a toast to life,
for the experiences of all senses and emotions.

i haven't mentioned something in a really long while,
life's not life without some spice.

YAY, i'm done with maths common test! :) however badly i've done, it's over! guess the hope lies in prelims, hopefully.



And yes, the last few days were spent(sadly, not that productive) with gp and maths. In the midst of all the studying, there was much thoughts and emotions coming strong.

it's been a about a year since CDAYL. :)

F3 had a picnic at the hortpark, which was really pretty and pity, since it rained and attendance wasn't that great. Nevertheless, things were still at a high level mode :)

a scene from yunnan, it reflects life a little, doesn't it?

And new zealand, most unforgettable.

Contrasting the new trips i've been, it really brings out how fortunate people are, and how much they don't appreciate things.

The school i visited in yunnan, those children there, had to cram in that freaking tiny bed together with their books and friends. with toliets that were never washed, that had no doors. some with loved ones lost. their study desks stacked up with books, all ready for lessons. had to walked probably one whole day just to go home and collect the school fees, some reaching home to only to recieve bad news.. They had the harshest conditions, but they were filled with drive for life, for learning..

And here i am, going on the wonderful new zealand trip, spending more than i could afford, eating the most filling and nurtirous meals, visiting places so leisurely, and taking learning slow. Man, how fortunate i am!

I'm going to travel around the world, and hold out my hands to those who need them. yes i will.

came across a saying from one of my friends, leon,

time flows, things goes.

oh yes, indeed so.

10 years down, i might just pass by someone close now, and not say hi.

i don't know.

But, friendships forged down, F3, MG, PAM and so much more.. No, i don't want to ever pass them as strangers. Never.

I want to grow up and sit down, talk about life together, giving blessings at each others' wedding, watching our children grow.

to become old and still say, hey there my friend, remember those old times.

it's just all too unbearable to watch things go.

next. hypocrispy.

i guess all of us are, at some point, a hypocrite. I'll love to think that i'm not too.

Even, entertaining people, just not to make things so plain, isn't that fake.

All of us puts on false fronts. But lately, all these are getting onto me.

I realised, i can't pretend, i can't stand all these shit fronts that people takes on.

Then, i'll see the sad side and empthasize with them. Then i'll be all mixed up.

See my point, at every point, i'm confused. Always.

Peekaboo! ;D

yay, new skin. :)
technology sucks btw.

You are Yellow! You are a bright, happy person. You probably like peace and harmony, and just wish that everyone could be as simply joyful as you are. You love to spend time with your friends, and are probably the optimist in the group. Not to say that you're sickeningly happy all the time, you just tend to have a positive outlook on life. You have a bright, pleasant personality that draws people to you. You can light up a whole room! You sometimes get stepped on by reds, not because you can't defend yourself, but because you prefer not to. You just don't want to disrupt the peace. Your friends go to you when they need someone to encourage them or to help them look on the bright side. You can also be very insightful; you have a way of seeing the world differently, more perceptively, than most people. At the same time, however, you can be a little...well, you live in your own little world. Just like yellow can go with most colors, you can get along with most people - as long as they can stand your optimism! You, in a nutshell: Happy, peace-loving, bright, insightful, optimistic, supportive, loving, compassionate.

what nice compliments from FB. :)

freakshit.
this thing is getting nowhere.
yeah, i don't have the courage to even feel the path.
but, waters are clearing up.
plain and clear.
i see what i wants.
everything.
except,
i don't see my feelings coming thg.
i've been swimming,
trying to find the right fish.
but, but.


i don't want this to stay hanging.
then, i'll take back my words.
i'm afraid of the end.

joey's birthday surprise was a total success. :)

last h2 paper was just over. YAY.

i need some retail therapy!!

Haha, i'm in midst of mugging really hard for tml geog paper,
but i was disrupted by a influx of emotions.

recieved an sms just now, from shawn.
a strong force coming from joey right now.
that stupid boy, calling to disturb.
that silly girl, all the hardships we've survived thg tht.
but, life would be really stupid without them. :)
just a simple message of thanks, of appreciation..
i wouldn't exchange it for anything else, really.

material things cannot be compared,
to all the bonds forged.
they're more than just gifts, more than just ties that bind us all.
they're already a part of my life.
yeah, that's what real friendships are.

the remnants of F3,
they're just who they're.
we're just another group of ppl, coming tgt to be facilitors.
but, but..
all the outings, all the conference calls, all the stayovers..
everything, after a year?
yeah, others might think,
it's really senseless, this whole thing.
still,
i love them with all my life :)