Pal Jang Team

It was a busy day out, from in the morning, going to sch for tkd meetings and interviews, to the afternoon, having tuition, to in the night celebrating jiamin's birthday at the hard rock cafe.

woah, sure it was tiring.

It felt kind of weird not training in the sat mornings.

College life is a little too short.

But i would want it to end soon, then i'll burn all my notes, goodnessssss.

sometimes you dont know whether you've made the correct choice.

you say you've drifted,

is there even something to drift away from in the first place?

or, you feel sick of the mask you've been clinging on to,

not letting it go, cause it'll just clear up the muddy waters,

then everything will be plain and clear?

lastly,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO HAMSTER, BENNY, MELISSA, JIAMIN. :)

four babies on the same day, cool man!

i was that near from getting into semi-finals.
we were that near from winning.
everything that near, so close from medals.
we tried, but not hard enough i guess.
it's one time that i really wanted to win.
at least for team.
high hopes come crashing that hard.
all the efforts, the days where we stayed back.
does that amount to nothing?
i was really counting on us to win.
before going in, we were perfect.
while in the arena ..
damn. damn it.

now that everything is over,
there's no more excuses.
no more i'm tired, i need to train.
no more trainings.
this competition
good in a way, it bonded the pal jang team.
but after all this, i'm starting to miss training already.
yeah it might be some losers' club in people's eyes,
but i never regret joining it.



everything seems different today.

woah training ended late today.
and i really feel like sleeping, really.

eating coffee chocos does help, i guess.
esp when you're staying up late trying to cram words into your brain.
i foresee more of caffine in the days to come.

i miss my bed,
but it's only monday!

one good thing,
this is the first year i succeeded in making rice dumplings myself.
yay, and it turned out fine.
:)

seriously, i think everyone should not be lazy and heat up your food before eating!

hols are coming,
first two weeks, remedials.
last two weeks, mug for block tests.
holidays are already gone!
:(

tournament this thurs,
really excited, but i'm afraid.
no strength, use more force. but i've tried alr!

it takes a lot to build up a friendship,
it's not easy to keep it going strong, throughout the years.
and it takes that little to tear all apart.
have faith in friendships?
that's something to ponder.
i've got no answer to it, despite all these months.
and relationships, that's something even deeper.
everyone's like, this is the a levels year, no no.
but, i don't know, somethings, really depends on time.
the right time and all.
i do believe in fate.
if you're fated, you'll just end up together after going in circles,
after years, after everything, after all the confusion.
right now, i'm really having mixed feelings about everything.

anw, reality hits, A's are really coming fast.
no time to waste, let's all hit the books!

:(
angry, at myself.
apolgetic.

talent time.
good and bad.

attended some useful talk this afternoon,
economy and it's depressing situation.
fel read my palm.
i'll have one fling, two real love relationships.
one of which i'll be deeply into it.
HAHAHAH. hmm.
recently i've been seeing lots of couples getting together,
and a lot breaking up, or some rocky ones.
affairs of the heart never fails to hurt, right?

a boat stays far out in the open sea.
when the tide is low, it floats there, sliently, on its own,
never bothering anyone else, the rest of the boats.
when the waves hit high, it comes knocking,
into the cluster of boats that had gathered,
taking one made of the same wood,
and goes the two boats back into the open sea, again.
there's one boat left standing, and the winds come raging.
and that boat starts going, going where the waters take it.
that boat, its body, its wood, no one has it.


i think insensitive people are most intolerant.
they go and come as they like,
but what about people's feelings?
i'm exterme, my views stay strong.
like, okay, hate. and it remains.
i show what i think, no mask.
hypocrites, i can't reach the level where i can show superfical expressions.
making use of, like a toy.
people shouldn't do that, really.
how much it hurts, do you know?


right now, i really wish i could be in new zealand,
i dont want to think, relationships, academic ..
sitting on the bus, playing in the snow, standing in the icy river,
freezing chocolate bars by the window.
nature.
ahhhhh. i reallll realllly miss new zealand!

warm sunday afternoon.
avoiding books and all.
i miss my bed, i'm going to miss it even more next week.
argh, it's a whole new week, all packed.
i foresee a bad week.
remedials, trainings, tuition, assignments.
lit, 3-pages essay, analyse of story.
maths test, i'm dreading it the most.
It's going to be another disappointing test.
i've done my part, but somehow it just doesn't work out.
And talent time, going for it, or not?

see, even before the week starts,
i'm having negative preceptions of everything.

foreshadowing of the months to come.
all for the 2 weeks in nov.
once again, break it or make it?

do i regret taking this path? would i eventually, next year with my results in hand? And, a wrong choice to take the arts? all the memorising, analysing, reading into everything and anything. doubts.

but i'm already halfway through it.

hang on there.

I'M EIGHTEEN ALREADY! :)