It's all that now.

School's getting more dreadful with each passing day.
The 2.5hrs long lessons are particularly draining, and given our short attention span, i feel that it is not reaping much benefits for most of us.

I walk in school, not feeling the fresh feeling each day once brought. The amount of workload is accumulating, as well as the stress. It's actually normal these days to see some outbursts, or experience it yourself. A random explosion helps alot, much better than keeping it in and not letting it out.

I end the day worse, knowing that i'll continue the same whole process tml again. I am so tired that i could think of nothing else. Throughout the same, i've been fighting against the urge to lie down, to close my eyes and catch some sleep. :/ sleeping now is a priviledge already.

To be honest, with 47 more days, i don't quite see how i'm going to get my goals. And i have heard this sentence repeated almost daily by most. Demoralized by the prelims results, it'll be quite normal for us to feel hopeless. I'm especially put down by econs, due to a S this time round again. It has the same effect after i've put in effort. What to do? I search for the answer. Then i go deeper down yet again.

Sometimes when you're feeling downright bitter and when all the negative emotions come crashing, i realised that it takes a really simple thing to lighten up everything. A cone of mixed berries ice-cream. A note of encouragement from close friends. A pat on the back. Someone to stand by you. :)

Afterall, it isn't life that is complicated, it is us who makes it all so bad.