Look into the mirror.

today's tuition ended unexpectantly in tears. :/
All of it triggered out by a qns. Then it got to a whole round of talk, which left almost all of us teary.

It's definitely comforting to know that, there is people who stumble through this phrase of their life, that people fought through with sheer hard effort, and of course it's really nice to know that there's people who are there beside you.
It's good to fall back on stories of success, whether it's about hard work or luck. You could constantly remind yourself that, yeah others made it, and here's your turn.

Even right now, with just 44 days left, i can honestly say, i don't know if i can make it. I used to have doubts on whether i've made the correct choice by choosing this route.
Running this final lap, i'll say that this is what i've chosen, and i believe i've made the best choice for myself. I guess, no matter what the outcome would be, it's one of the best experience i've had, and i will be able to say that i've give it my all. No regrets whatsoever.

It's pretty true that if you feel lousy about yourself to begin with, you cannot step up any further.
Also i don't think i'll ever put my heart into helping someone if i don't see her/him doing justice to herself by starting to work hard. One must be worthly and deserving to be helped.

:)

I believe in fate, and that it brings people together, making us all meet for a reason.
Coming into a jc, i've seen quite a number of people.

Some became very dear to me. Most of my happiest moments are shared with them, and they're there for many of my darkest moments too. I know i'll probably still keep in contact with most of the people who falls into this category, and it'll be really hard to give up the bonds forged within this period. Indeed, they've showed me a lot of things, taught me what a true friend really means, pulling me through many rough patches, pulling me tight when things are ugly. Yes of course, they have their own flaws, but to be able to compromise these flaws brings us all closer.
I'm most grateful to this bunch of people.

With the good ones comes the not so good ones too. Few months back, i'll probably blame on fate for beinging us together, to make me see the side of people that most would prefer to avoid. Indeed some had brought much misery. Through all these, i've got a taste of what i am going to encounter in life later on, the people i'll encounter later on. And they taught me many things too. Fate probably set them up, for me to see who are the dearer ones. Now, i choose not to think that they're bad, but rather, we're just of different frequencies.

Woah, i don't quite know how all these came spilling out. Got quite a bit of the above from my tuition teacher. I've learned about than just mere lit from her. I must say, she's one of the best person i've ever met.

Allright, time to get some actions done instead of just empty talks.

With that, i'll like to say, i'll really like to go into the uni with all the people i hold dear. :)

It's all that now.

School's getting more dreadful with each passing day.
The 2.5hrs long lessons are particularly draining, and given our short attention span, i feel that it is not reaping much benefits for most of us.

I walk in school, not feeling the fresh feeling each day once brought. The amount of workload is accumulating, as well as the stress. It's actually normal these days to see some outbursts, or experience it yourself. A random explosion helps alot, much better than keeping it in and not letting it out.

I end the day worse, knowing that i'll continue the same whole process tml again. I am so tired that i could think of nothing else. Throughout the same, i've been fighting against the urge to lie down, to close my eyes and catch some sleep. :/ sleeping now is a priviledge already.

To be honest, with 47 more days, i don't quite see how i'm going to get my goals. And i have heard this sentence repeated almost daily by most. Demoralized by the prelims results, it'll be quite normal for us to feel hopeless. I'm especially put down by econs, due to a S this time round again. It has the same effect after i've put in effort. What to do? I search for the answer. Then i go deeper down yet again.

Sometimes when you're feeling downright bitter and when all the negative emotions come crashing, i realised that it takes a really simple thing to lighten up everything. A cone of mixed berries ice-cream. A note of encouragement from close friends. A pat on the back. Someone to stand by you. :)

Afterall, it isn't life that is complicated, it is us who makes it all so bad.

HELLO HELP?

I feel like i'm carrying the whole earth. So damn heavy.

Freak. I want to scream out loud. I'll explode sooner or little.

AHHH.

SOS PLEASE

The rain just gets heavier.

The first two days of school were downright horrible. And it just went downhill today.
All cos of results.

Maths, though expected, but. but.
Lit was prehaps the most disappointing one. Thought i'll do better than that seriously.
Gp paper 1 was another demoralising piece.

And, this's not all.

Now, i'm starting to think, i should have just went poly, i should have just stayed back last year.
Teachers are not really helping. Your class is the most unprepared for A levels among the whole cohort. And, seeing how they assist the 4h2s classes.. yeah, they're the potential scholars, but it just made me feel so helpless. Ah freak, i'll probably jump down if i don't get into a uni.

As much as i've said that i'll not let prelims results affect me, it's actually pulling me down much worse.

Break those gates

Yesterday, had lunch at the aston with ana erin and audrey. And the four of us were such kind people. We found a handphone on the pavement, and picked it up. Tried to call using the contacts but couldn't didn't manage to. Then someone called, and we met them and return the phone to them!

If only all the people in the world are honest, then it'll be really great. Then i didn't have to lose my wallet and phone, only to get it back all rotten after months. :/

It's 58 more days. SOS please. Can't find myself sitting down for at least 5 hours. This week is so filled up with events, and at the end of the week, i 'll always feel that there're a million things to do, so much so that i can't find one to start with.

Nono, sdsm, to quote with from school. Starting from next week!

Pose for a pic, please.

HAPPY GIRLS :)

THURS, steamboat with F3s :) Probably one of the last gathering alr. And one of the best. It was good fun, good photo taking, good people. I'll surely miss them like shit.


WED, swimming. tanning. Great fun, esp the wave pool cos everyone can't really grab the float. Great time tanning, but the after effect is horrible omg. We totally overkill.
I've decided too put more effort into swimming. Healthy lifestyle yo.





WED, dinner at ion! :) yay, been a really long time since i saw some of them, esp ivy. All so engrossed in our own life, meeting up seems so rare. And i get this feeling that it'll just get more difficult. Time flows, things goes. Hopefully not our friendship.

Can't remember when was this taken. ICONS :)

WCP (plaza, not park), time to study girls!

My right ear is hurting for some unknown reason, but i guess it's most probably ear infection. And the last few nights had been terrible. Sleepless. Can't turn on my left cos of my terrible sunburnt skin, not the right cos of my ear. Don't prefer lying on my back. Ahh.

With the opening of sch week, there's the final lap to A's. With that, comes prom, and yes, the end. What a rush ending it's gonna be, for this short two years. I can't say that i'll like to remain in the sch for even another day, but i'll defintely miss the fun like shit. Made some really awesome good friends. And saw the another terrible side of people.

I'm starting to realise, if you want something really bad enough, you'll throw in all. That's the desperation. That we all need now.

Go on and take a plane.

Good time spent at home today. At least there's no disturbance from anyone.
Though i have to say that this works well for two days at the max.
Too much of slience will kill.

Now. I. Really. Want. To. Get. On. A. Plane.
AND GO AWAY AWAY AWAY.

Singapore gets a little boring nowadays. Like, you can't find a bench with really clear waters, a cliff with really smashing waves, a mountain that is really massive and, yes snow!
I'll like some days, that i can be dressed up in winterwear, those really thick furs, scafts, boots. And not sweat like hell.

Okay, this week is pretty eventful. :) Can't wait.

Ohyes i'm dreading next week like, to a unlimited measurement seriously.

Birthday celebrations ought to be at the sakae outlet at the icon, over at the tanjong pagar area.
We went there to celebrate vicky's birthday, and had a pleasant surprise by the manager. :)
It was really sweet of them, to have cakes on the conveyer belt, rolling towards us! 6 little cakes with cartoon characters on it, and plenty of rose petals. It was really a lovely sight.

Fri, just before tuition, ICONS caught COCO before CHANEL. Despite the low ratings, i find the movie a pretty good one. There wasn't much of a story of how the whole Chanel came along, but rather, more on the life of the founder, Coco, and how she came to the decision not to marry. Nearly everyone was the upper-class, so elegant. And it's nice to have a look at the fashion of the past! :)
And oh, tuition wasn't so bad as i think it would be. Another happy thing.

Sat was training! :) Omg it was like a million years since the last training i went for. And it's really pleasant to see many of the J2s there too, though many more couldn't make it. It's been a really long time. Wonderful feeling to be able to sweat like that again, to stretch my limbs again(painfully). And, go for tkd lunch, yay! juniors are lovely people, and it's always more than nice to be training with the j2s! :) I'm missing last year quite a bit alr.

Today is a rainy day and i'll like to sleep 24/7. I think there's something wrong with me, cos i can sleep and sleep and sleep again! Like, i don't really feel awake after a 12 hrs sleep?


I'm kindo lokking forward to next week, with all the gatherings. :)

But recently i've realized that despite being quite dependent on people (don't think i could survive alone), i'm beginning to like to have some time alone. But i do like being in groups where i'll feel at home, no need for pretence and any sort of entertainment, acting like i'm really interested. I'm showing emotions more outwardly, not bothering to show any sort of hyporcrisy.

Life gets a little tiring sometimes you know.
Then, you'll like to just take a walk around, alone.
Maybe on your bagpack, just that and you're going.
Stopping a little, by the river, ocean, cliff.
Standing on the middle of the bridge, on a yatch in the sea.
Sitting on a cafe, just watching people go.
Someday i'll just do that.

bad times for some close friends. Hang in there, there's loads of love from around :)

It's my teapot's birthday! :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY VICKY :)

it's been more than a year, since some really tiny girl came and sit by me yeah? Been thg much, thankyou for all the long journeys back home, and those times spent studying, and everything. :) everything's gonna be so dull without you! BFF <3

YAY!

Terrible start to the nicely planned out schedule :(
Hasn't been that focused. Distractions is all ard.

Nice days out though. Accompanied Audrey to get her shopping done,

studying out with hamster and joey was much fun :)

I think i'm growing old at a much fast pace. My back is achingly uncomfortable, for some unknown reason. I think i need to lie down a little.

Anw, the next few days, is going to be with Shakesphere, the pretty boring old man, prep for fri's tuition. I would prefer some slightly more modern text anytime, seriously.