woah, it's the study break again, yay!

saturday, went taban mac with the nz ppl. though a nice place to study, but we didn't really got down to the books, if you could count the few pages i did, for the whole time there. played pool, chatted, ate, walked. all those little distractions took up much time. a few minutes could accumulated into hours. we were saying, ohmy, so gulity. but still, our gulity conscience still keep us away from the mugging. but anw, who could really mug, with mabel around? HAHA, okay lah, we're just to excited to see which other again, since our parting from fri! but seriously, there's just so much to talk about! :)

today, ohmy, again, my gulity conscience. i got some work done, like 3 maths questions. this is shitty, wasn't what i've planned. slept till 12, went back to bed at 2, only waking up at four. but well, at least i got my basics for maths sorted out. yay, haha!

i had a consultation with ms chew just last thursday. supposedly to be going through the corrections for AQ, but it ended as some talk.
she mentioned, she didn't want to grow old, and only to realize then that she hadn't done something meaningful in her life. and that's why she chose her present job, when she could have done something with higher monetary returns.
how true is that.
i wouldn't want to step into my grave, only to regret that i haven't experience something i really enjoy. that'll be everyone's biggest regret.
i'm already seventeen, but i've not had something in mind that i truly want. something that i'll do even with no monetary gain. but in the reality, can we really do something that we enjoy, but with no income?
i've always wanted to be a part of world vision, to go to the poorest places and help the people there. it's a charitable organisation that would pay little, that wouldn't even promise survival in this real world. but it's something i really really want to do, i think money isn't going to stop me. someday, i'll find a way to get around it, and go pursue it!

it's been a long long time since i've really thought hard about something.

since this year, i've really learnt to appreciate, not only things but people.
can we even come close to things we've done or we're doing again? something that i've never pondered till then.
like, all the overnight mugging sessions at audrey's house last year, all the consultations with miss chee, her lessons.
like, all the rushing to lessons and break with merry gang, the heart to heart talks with them, the shopping trips, the plank and swing.
like, the camps and the preparations to it, the newzealand trip.
some nostalgic feelings.
when i graduate at next year end, i don't think there'll ever be a chance to do all these again.
maybe we can still sit down and have some heart talks, but it'll never be the same as when we talked in that particular place, at that particular time. you'll never realised that you're missing something till someday long after that, like decades later.
and when it comes to that, you'll have to hug your memories.

recollections are in the eyes of the beholder; no two held up side by side will ever be quite match.

for the umpteen times, it's time to get started!
even with my full or partial exemption, i can still hope for a pass!