Tuesday, May 13, 2008

i'm suppose to be doing maths, studying ecos. but, my mind's too heavy. toomuchthings, muchtooheavy.

i can't do anything straight, not unless i get these off.

asked yihao the first thing at pc about the camp. well, i cant go to the camp after all. mon night, i was praying hard for him to say no, there's just too much things to complete for me to say yes.
but now that he says no, it just hit me that i didnt want no. saw the family list of one, together with underwear and joey. joey and i are both in one. counting this, it's the third time we're together on the same family. reality's just too great at that time, too great that i teared. it's stupid i know. joey and vicky was like, stop thinking abt it since it's been decided. i'm really sorry with my wantingtogoanddontwanttogoandjustcantgo mood. joey saw my tears. i couldn't help it! we were all so prepared to be in different families. but we're in the same one, and i cant go! oh my. seriously, i miss my family. all of them. the times in camp, that we slept outside the hall, painting banners and all.



saw shawn, i think he freaked out when i cried. he's just too nice. so sorry underwear!
saw hamster. said he's not going cos we're not. aw, man.
saw hooi kim, her eyes turned red, she said shawn told her that i'm not going. she wanted to jump to familyone if i went. she's really down, saying that most of her family's withdrawing. cheers, kim. i'm really sorry.

anyway, everything's settled.

schoolwork's loading up, with the cannotgocamp mood. my day's not so great.
i'm so sorry if i'm pissing you guys off, vicky and joey.
anyway, we'll fufil the words we said during ecos allright, we'll study and play just a little less. just a few more months, we'll be off to new zealand. and soon it'll be the next year already.


stopped singing that song.
stopped before it gets too deep.
stopped; and just stopped.













it's pointless anyway. i've decided.

















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