ABOVE, zhepeng's next-of-kins.

and he lives in the zoo.

okay, so i've just went in to the toliet, and puked up the sushi from friday. It was totally grossed omg. Argh.

the life before the puke and after is woah, changed. aft was like, woooaaahhh.

for a moment, it was like, I've got the virus. Desperate times like this.

yup, so it's offically monday. No extension. Papers to survive thg. Everything's set.

Last day of holidays just bade goodbye. That sounds calm huh, but what to do? It's called firmness.

yeah, so right. I'll going to embrace reality. That's fighting towards nov, with injections of fun here and there.

No normal person can go on straight for 4 months with those books, and i consider myself perfectly normal.

I'LL ACE IT! hopefully :)

redbull, large iced brewed coffee with tons of sugar syrup.
caffine, sugar.
sugar rush?
mentally, i'm dead.
physically, i'll love a midnight run.
too bad, no guts. HAHA.

life, people, you.

is others' perception of you part of your identity?
if it's that, then, wouldn't be identity no longer a personal thing?
identity, all that that's belong to you. you and just you.
others' views of you, that's you? Your identity?
i guess .. more of a mask you put on.

how others see you, then how you behave.
letting it shape your mask.
that label you've pasted onto you,
gradually, into you ..

you can't discard this,
can't dissolve this air ard you anymore.
it's all false now.

reality.
yeah, that's that.
you only have you to hug.




even the wrong route seems right sometimes.
yeah.
it'll be right,
if you take the first step to the seemingly wrong route.
but, how many dare to?
for a start, i've got too much of shit cowardice to even feel the path.

no extended hols.
bad news, really bad news.
:(

little randomness.

#1 I NEED THE HOLS TO BE EXTENDED, REALLY. THE VIRUS IS SPREADING LIKE WILDFIRE, DONT YOU SEE.

#2 LIT IS CRAZING ME CRAZY. MY GOD.

#3 SO IS A'S.

#4 SO IS THE FINANICAL INSTABLITY I'M GOING THG.

#5 ALL IN ALL, I HATE MY JC2 LIFE.

#6 RANK POINTS FOR COMMON TESTS : 65.
PLEASEEEEEEEE. JUST A 65 FOR NOW.




I NEED A LIFE, SERIOUSLY.

I've been too lazy and too busy since the start of the holidays, to come in here and write. This is the third week of the holidays, and next week will be the last. After that, school will be hell. :(

Already in the first week of school, common tests are scheduled, day after day. Following that is the maths common test, one of the most dreadful test.

These three weeks had been spent rather fruitfully, i guess. The first two was lessons and make-ups, though it was rather hard to have full concentration, esp econs. Then there's the tkd camp, a rather enjoyable camp, filled with much disagreements, quarrels, trainings, but fun too. :) Quite a number of seniors came back, suprisingly, some even from 6 years ago!

These three weeks, i think, had been a well-managed period of time, with consistent revision interjected with gatherings and fun times! Some of us had been/is on an intensive self-studying program, great time catching up on the lectures and tutorials we've been skipping. Great studying partners, F3 (shawn who's been intensively studying), and vicky, joey! :) The sad truth after all the self-denial, the work left to be done is intensively piling up, with the gradual loss of concentration and the amt of time left!

Casting work aside, there's always playtimes. Going to railmall and the meadow nearby with brothers, dinner and catching up with pri-sch mates, sec sch mates, the ongoing seemingly endless birthday celebrations..

With that, the holidays had been passing by really quickly, and the end of it drawing nearer. :(

ohwell, all these will pass in no time, hopefully, the thought of going to the uni is kind of exciting :)

I'm going to travel around the world,

I'm going to go on mission trips.

I'm going to walk down the streets with my head held high.

I'm going to hold his hands till goodbyes.

I'm going to grow old and I'm going to look back,

and say that i've made it all worthwhile.