I think this world is full of regrets, or rather, the people having regrets.
Yes, i think we're all filled with regrets.
Only realising it when nothing can be done already.
It is stupid when you do nothing when you can,
and want to do something when you can't.
It is foolish when you you can't brace yourself up to do that something,
something that you've been waiting for, that you thought you'll do it.
It is miserable, when there is no more chance,
when you drown in misery.

When i finally decides on something,
everything else go wrong.
When i'm tired of all the masks behind those faces,
my sense says there're more to come.

Yucks, i don't like two-faced hypocrites.

And i love long talks on bus rides home with vicky.

ohshit this is a rubbish post totally, though it's kind of a reflection.

Lastly, Life's not life without some spice.




fate.
waits.

i'm so tired now that i wished i could be sick so that i can have an excuse to stay in bed and just sleep!
Mentally or physically, i'm so so wore out! :( :(
All the ogl work, painting banners made me so tired everyday.
I wanted to quit. But my family is getting better, more fun, and nice and everything ..
And the surprise that Mr Leow had for us after CNY celebrations, the laoyusheng, all the fun i would have missed out ..
But now, today, i felt as if it's the most tiring day of my life omg!
Like it couldn't help even if i slept for a million years.
My whole body is aching, and i'm lacking of sleep. argh.
It's damn irritating, and lessons made it all worse.
And stomach cramps add on to it.

:(

Ohwell, we'll all survive it thg somehow, yay!
Being an optimistist has its pros. :)

hello i do really want to learn how to play the guitar.
I'm not sure if i've got it from the night at shawn's house.
But this urge came this few days.
And i do really want to fufil it.

And vicky and i have got some telepathy.
:)
Both of us are in the same situation now, omg!

ohwell, i hope both of us can get our wishes fufilled nicely!

HAPPY CHY !! :)

The past week had gone by very quickly, so quick that i couldn't quite remember what i've done specifically. Everything's such a blur.

I only rmb coming home at ard 10pm 11pm every other day,

staying in school to paint and draw endless banners,

practise and cheorgraph family dance,

going to lessons with my mind half awake,

unable to get out of bed in time everyday,

crashing down on my bed without getting any work done,

F3 reunion dinner at shawn's,

and still very much confused and undecided abt many things.

But anw, the steamboat at shawn's house was a terrific one. :)

It was such a nice get-together, and we all had so much fun!

And we had our own mini song-singing session, thanks to eve joey anthony ...

Hooi kim and i were the only two girls who stayed over, and the guys were such un-gentlemens! HAHA.and we got up at 7, preparing to go to school, but only leaving at 9 cos' we had steamboat again, in the morning!

I still love family three best! :)

Anw, i'm so glad that the following two days are CNY. It'll be two days of heaven, with lots of hongbaos, gambling, eating .. :) YAY, i really love chinese new year! :):)

But i foresee that it'll be a tiring week ahead, esp with Ocamp. ohwell, we'll all survive it anw.

I really want all 10 carebears, and i can't choose my favourite one because i love all 10.
Hahahah. I've been searching for Carebears folder but to no avail. :(
And i want to sit in one of the ancient carriages or coaches that horses pull!
I'm being unrealistic here, hahaha.

Anw, i went to school in the early saturday morning, for the ogl meeting. And was dismissed only in the evening time. And woah, everyone did alot of work. I was painting and drawing banners from like 9 am to 2pm, with many others. There's a sense of satisfaction upon completion, cos' it's my first time drawing so many banners at a go! Ohyes, we sang songs, and had a unexpected water game. Everyone was just pouring water at everyone else. Hahaha, it was fun! There was the vetting for family dance too, and i guess we kind of screwed it up. HAHA. Everyone did a really great job. :) One sad thing is, i've got uneven tans on my arms and legs.

I went to the cementry in the early morning, but i was not really sure what i did. Because it was too early and i really feel like sleeping and my parents settled everything. I was just standing there, trying hard not to sleep. :)

Okay, the first week of school. I think i was rather disciplined and self-motivated. I've been revising and doing my homework regularly. yay, SDSM! HAHA, wth. But, i think i was much better in handling my time than i did last year. At least i've got the urge to want to study for most of the time. And right now i'm revising ecos, and this is excellent. :) Okay, i think i'm self-praising.
With the hectic school life going, i think i've got to manage my school work better than this. Next week is going to be a very busy week. I haven't been seeing my bed much, and i think i'm going to see it lesser next week.
And i'm suffering from aches all over my body but i dont know why and it sucks. argh!
Mon, bikila house comm meeting with mr ng
Tue, family dance.
Wed, cca.
Thurs, painting of family broads.
Fri, F3 DINNER AND SLEEPOVER! :)

On a lighter note, CNY is coming. YAY, lots of hongbaos and money and food and cardgames!! :)
I love CNY! :) :)

Today everyone is so tired.
During lit class, literally half the class was fast asleep.
I'm so sleepy too. But the canteen is too noisy to sleep.
The plank is a good place. But the sun is far too scorching.
Poor joey had a bad encounter on the bus today.
And btw i think i'm getting more and more confused.
Regarding some things.
Shit, i think i'm a pretty bad person.

I can't wait for the F3 steamboat in conjuction with CHY next fri.
P.S. ALL F3S WHO CAN MAKE IT NEXT FRI, DINNER AT SHAWN'S HOUSE, PLS SMS ME.

Tml is the vetting for family dance and i'm so nervous even though i'm not dancing. All the best, family one! :)

yay, school with merry people. :)

It's been four days since school starts, and i'm already dreading getting up of bed every morning!
I'll just stay under my blanket, and rush out of bed at the very last minute! :)
Anw, i think the post A levels' stress/studying is coming on really fast. Its only the first week of school, and everyone seemed to be studying already.
Today Vicky and i were studying (!) in the canteen, (i can't believe it myself) Vicky mentioned that she feels and saw the almost the whole canteen studying too!
And Mabel, amazingly, is paying attention in class now!
And Merry Gang hasn't been late for lessons for far, and our noise level is reduced to the minimum too!
ohmy i'm so proud of myself and everyone else! :) yay, but i hope this will last more than just a week.

Anw, i've been reaching home at 9 for the past two days, due to family dance! Ytd was crashing family three with shawn kim and huiyan. Today was my own family dance, tgt with family three in the dance room. But surpisingly, though i was feeling tired, but these two days were happy days in the evening. Not quite in the afternoon and morning, during all the lessons.
Dancing with my family, esp the girls are so much fun, and people form family three are such nice people too! I've plenty of fun in the evening spent with all these people, yay! :)
A SPECIAL THANKS TO YIQI AND MICHELLE FOR THE DANCE MOVES!

Yes, and i think i really need some sleep. haha, i just get seem to get enough of sleep, no matter how much i sleep. Goodnight everyone.

So, today was the first day of school.
Recieved the student leader's tiepin today.
And with it comes more responsibility, more commitment and everything else.
While this pin might be nothing to some, even foolish and silly why we're doing this,
but everyone has different thinkings.
I'm proud to put on this pin, really.
School was average today, the timetable has somewhat been filled with lesser lessons.
ending at almost one everyday.
But still, i think the stress is coming on fast.

And the feeling that i've had last year is coming back, again, sadly.
There are some things i can say to certain people only,
and some things i can put it up here.
Some relationships, i really hope it'll last.
Strong friendships do matters a lot.

Well, just, for this new year,
no more superficiality, over-sensativity.
Doing things that i think it's right, and not just follow the crowd.
Some people might be seen as a really bad person to others,
but some things that we've gone through, i've seen and heard personally,
made me think otherwise.
I don't want to change how others' think,
And i don't want to let them change how i think too.
Yes, we'll all have our own stand and let things remain like that.

It's a nice new start, a great school year.
And, i'll keep my promise to myself.

I'm back from the ogl prep camp! :)
There were super little ogls, surpisingly and shockingly.
I'm in family one, and we've abt like, 17 ppl?
So, that'll be like , one ogl to one group. omg!
But anw, this prep camp was quite fun,
interesting too. no jj night.
And instead, BBQ and campfire. :) :)
And there's morning walk, long run ..

I think my family is still okay.
Though i really really really miss familythree!
But still, there're quite a number of nice people in F1 too. :)
And i love the last night, where the few of F3s were up,
talking while the whole hall were sleeping!
Made a few friends too, my family people, and some others.

But this is the camp where i've got the most injures.
First, i wore the wrong shoes to run, so my toes hurt.
Then i had to wear sandals for the rest of the camp.
There're like millions of ppl who stepped on my toes,
when my toes are painful already.
Then during the water games, got a cut.
so now, my nails are like coming out.

But anw, it's still quite fun. :)

Tml is the start of school already!
I'm going to mug my ass off! :)

There are 5 more days till school reopens. But, i'm going for the ogl camp tml. so, three days gone.
Anw, today is my last time staying home this holidays, and yes, one of the few times too. i've just realised that i can count the numbers of days that i've stayed at home this hols with my two hands! And i do miss the alone time in the afternoon! :)
I've just done up nites for one of the chp of ecos, yay! It's the prep for the test on the first week, the essay test. :( And i still have not found my lost maths worksheet which is my holiday homework. :( And i think Ms Foo will just grab me on the first day of school and give me maths! :(
On the bright side, i still have the rest of today and sunday to study! :)

Allright, i'll be back on sat! Hope the camp will be really fun. :)

PHOTOS :)

Yay, i think i did a great job today in the library, together with vicky. We went to the national library in the early morning, and took out our books and pens. We survived thg three hours of books! :) yay, we've all changed, vicky huh? HAHA, i guess it's the terrifying new year that shaped us into muggers, for once! but i hope it'll last. Anw, i had a pretty good day with vicky, studying, talking, eating, and shopping! Okay, we walked around a little, just a little of shopping! :)
Ohyes, btw. We went into Muji, and i was just talking about the ear muffles that mr goh wore on the New Zealand trip, and just at that moment, the song that we sang at the mauri place was played. Ohman, i miss New Zealand!!!

Okay, anw, met up with erin, ana and audrey last friday. Went to watch bedtime stories, went settlers' for a while, and then will drinking at clarke quay! :) It wasn't really drinking, we had one popper, two shockers. But i guess the it was about 40percent alcoholic, which was quite strong, cos it made audrey drunk after, like two sips? HAHA LOUSY. We went for supper at chinatown after that, with weeling.

Sat was training. The whole school was like having homecoming matches! Anw, i went off early, and meet up with the rest for lunch with miss chee at Swensens. I met up with joey first, and taught her the grading pattern at Plaza Sing. Haha, both of us was like trying to hide from passersby the whole while! The rest of familythree came, and we went Manhattan for dinner. :)
It was a great and happy day! :):)

And then Sun was grading day. We were the first batch, and had to do the pledge. Haha, it was quite funny doing it! Anw, i guess it went pretty well for me. :) Anw, it was almost a day spent in bed for me! I was so tired, that i could sleep for a million years and still feel tired!

I'm having a flu now, and cough. I've used up like i dont know how many packets of tissues already, and my nose is still like a blocked tap. Haha! I hope i'll recover soon, and be well for the camp on thurs! I'm not really very enthusiatic at the camp alr, and being in scdc. Ah!

Hello 2009! HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!
i think i'm starting to miss the 08year already, together with all the events and the busy days and everything that is gone with it. I've said it, i'm not really looking forward to the new year, not with the studies that comes with it. How nice would it be if year one of junior college would last. Seventeen forever. Haha, but i guess i wouldn't mind experiencing what's it like to be a grown-up. And i'm starting to contradict myself here.
Anw, i've just seen kim's blog, and her lastest post is so reflective. Haha.
Yeah, and i must say, i totally agree with her.
Like how i thought i couldn't even speak a word in front of a crowd, but i guess i've improved.
And how i thought myself to be unable to take up responsibilties, and i think i do now.
And how i've learn about initiative.

Some really good new friends are made, and i'm really glad about it.
Like the MG, Family Three, A02, Tkd ...
And past friendships might have been weaker by that bit, but some are still going strong.
Like Qtss clique and ppl there, Tricia Jiaxin ..
Seriously, i think friends are everything. I couldn't survive even a day if not for them.

I think 2008 has been a really great year for me and everyone else, and it'll definately be a year to rmb. But, 2009 is going to be great anyway, and it's going to be 18 years for most of us! :)
Allright, enjoy everyone!